This is my heart breaking friend zoned
story or what so ever and I don’t know when it will end.
I met this guy 3 years ago and I never
imagine that I will fall for him since the day I first saw him. He’s not the typical prince charming guy that
every woman dreams of or a masculine superhero that will save his leading lady
from villains. He's just an Isaac Newton
who is focus on his equations of his existence. Yes, he's too smart and
career-oriented/ workaholic for a happy-go lucky me.
They said that every woman has their sixth
sense: the feeling of being cheated by their man. Doing such investigation
better than a CSI agent or asking questions like a 6 year old innocent
child. Jealousy is such a mental cancer
to women. Sometimes, they find envious to something that is not an immense deal
to a man. Making simple problems into
big and complicated dilemma which sometimes results to over boarding their
limits and nastiest outcome is break-ups.
But in my case, that's too impossible to happen because of this so-called
one-sided love I have for him.
"Don’t forget- I'm just a girl standing in front of a boy
asking him to love her." [Nothing Hill]
A line I remember from Nothing Hill where
Julia Roberts expressed her feelings to Hugh Grant with full of confidence. I
wish someday I have the courage to say those words in front of him. But at this very moment, my mind advises me
not to do so as it says friendship lasts longer than love. [True enough?! I don’t know.] In contrary, this heart tells me that I am
capable of doing both at the same time, being in love with your friend. But, the big question is... will we have
effective bond if we both decided to build up our friendship into lovers?
I know his hobbies, mannerism, his likes
and dislikes, personality, and attitude. But I was stunned when I accidentally
found out about his past relationship. It did
left big bang to me, since his girl is one of our common friends and I didn't know
anything about them until they broke-up. And to tell you the truth, I feel
fumed to both of them, especially to him.
Stupid me! I was too focused on his dazzling side and blinded by my love
for him and what wounded me more is that I assumed that he felt the same way as
I do towards him.
Do you know the feeling of being hurt
unintentionally by his stories? but because you know the real story behind HIS
story, you just want to cry in front of him but you can't so you just pretend
that you’re interested hearing those words. YES! this is the in love ME. I will take everything for the one I know I love.
There are those who say that life is like a
book, with chapters for each event in your life and a limited number of pages
on which you can spend your time. But I prefer to think that a book is like a
life, particularly a good one, which is well to worth staying up all night to
finish this what they called love story. So I am here still making one for myself.
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